god forgive me

all this guilt and shame slay me o lord, forgive me !!! pain and rage and all that glitters of this fleeting painful world comsume those who know not how to fight back.

My heart feels hollow, why? My body aches, why?
I feel naught but sorrow, Why? all my tears fall as acid upon my cheeks. why?
all of this i feel like im drowning, im so afraid!!! OH GOD! save my poor wretched soul! Nightmares of a death well meant for me, crucified on a cross as my lord was, pierced whipped and bleeding, as my lord was. my mother turning demonic and killing me as Jesus was killed, lovely right? ha ha ha No not really, turning blind by a freak accident... hmm better? maybe...maybe not.... sigh, i feel so lost.... may god forgive me for feeling this way.

Last Time Last Dance

Pilly is done my life is scarred but i will heal and move on I thank God for all he has done, already he ahs given me hope for a new future.

Christmas Concert 2008

Christmas Concert 2008
Beautiful music praising the Lord, to show his goodness in times of hardship and be able to say to people, “let me tell you who God is, let me show you how good He is!’ also say to them that despite what I have been through, and all the hardships and trials I face and the uncertainties and doubts that flood my conscience, I tell you when every last crutch , every last thing that I cling to, is stripped away, I have one thing left…. What is that thing you ask? More like who is it you cling too?
The ROCK of my salvation, Yahweh, Jehovah, Elohim, Adoniah, the Prince of Peace, The King of Kings, The Lord or Lords, the Mediator, The Intercessor, The GOOD shepherd, The branch of Jesse, The son of David, Son of God, Lamb of God, Son of man, High priest. Abba.
He is all I have left, the only thing I have to hope, the love of my life
Jesus Christ!

Thee Art Mine Enchanter

10/29/08

Thee Art Mine Enchanter

Your voice is husky rich velvet caressing my ears to listen to your words.

Thy lips are full and I long for thy kiss

Your hands though chaffed from work, know to be tender and gentle.

Master craftsman, using the talents, God has bestowed,

Upon you and putting them to good use.

Though the metal you been with your hands is a masterpiece in itself,

You can mold my body with your tender touch,

The spark of heat ignites into a full flame,

That is what thy touch has done to me,

It drives me to utter madness

Your hair is as dark, as the raven’s wing, yet thick as lambs wool.

Thy eyes as dark as the sapphire, when thy temper is roused.

But gloriously deep and wisdom rests there,

I am swept away by thy gaze; thy eyes are like the sea.

Thy face...So handsome it is how I love to gaze upon it.

To be in thy arms…I find comfort in thy understanding and embrace.

Thy strength oh to behold it.

Thy love, to have it bloom for me...

Blessed I’d be indeed!

For my love is a secret and it blooms,

As a fragile flow’r for you and you alone.

I pray that God will draw us both,

Nearer and nearer to one another. With tender loving kindness.

By Lisa Isabella Asmus

{About her raven haired, sapphire eyed enchanter}

{Who haunts her every waking moment, as well as night.}

This IS NOT.. the END.... But MERELY a BEGINING

How do u say goodbye to the children who stole your heart,
to the people who impacted your life like no other person has before, or ever will again?
The teachers who taught you to have a humble joyous spirit
and nurtured you and watched you grow in their culture.
You walk away with a better understanding of the deaf people, and their way of life.
i am almost bilingual because of the sign language I've been learning.
through the tears and my blurred vision I see God work through me in so many ways.
through relearning sign language to the point where i am so good that i can interpret basically anything,
without classes. Just learning all on my own. The best teachers in the whole world,
who show me what it is and what it means "to live to serve people".
I LOVE YOU GUYS !!! STEVIE & MIKE, CHRISSA & RYAN!!!

thank you guy sooo much for all that you have done!