tortur'd

oh my love how i regret the pain and strife i've rent.
my heart it died within my chest to see you hurt at my expense.
my soul it weeps acid burning my blood.
my tears the fall down in a flood.
i dare not seek thee out or speak anon.
for to cause you pain again.
my voice shall not be raised
in song or laughter or speech.
to see the at all to morrow my heart will quail
i have done you great disservice as a friend i fail.
i a hot temper'd fool shall no longer see thee again.
Distance shall be a common ground for us now.
I'll love thee for'er be now at peace.
how dare i love thee if i am too blame for my foolishness and thy pain.
I seek forgiveness but give it not.
for hell bound i am to rot.
you cannot save me for i'm eternally damn'd.
Though still i'm a lost wounded lamb.
I prithee ne're see this post, lest i truly die of ultimate pain.
rejection from you would dispatch me straight.
quicker than bella donna.
thicker than hate.
i would die knowing my love for you was pure.
and being without you is pure torture.

Solider of War

Though I look frail,weak and innocent. There's something lurking beneath the surface. Someone once said the eyes of a person are like a window to their soul. if you look into mine at first glance what will you see? perhaps you'll see; joy, mischievousness, and sweetness. but if you truly took the time to dig deeper, you'll find a wisdom as old as time itself, sorrow hidden by deep pain of a past a dark as the holocaust. I am a solider of War. though i do not fight against flesh and blood, i fight with the spirit world. I must help my comrades stay strong, for if one of us were to falter,we would come to their aid.

all the pretty little horses

all my life, i've been around horses. Loved them like crazy. Used to ride them all the time.they made me feel like i was flying, i felt like i was free. with nothing to stop me. i was utterly care free.

being in love with someone who doesn't reslise that he loves you back it funny and frustrating

Meaningful music

I'm listening to memorable songs that mean something to me. ones that actually cause people to think and use their minds.

The One year anniversary

Oh, wow a whole year has gone by, my soul has flown and grows sad at remembering a tragic day. yet I am content in the fact that i have new friend s and a good out look. I wish that life wasn't as hard as it is, but then life wouldn't be interesting would it?

meep

hahahahahah